A Recent Incident

Recently there was an incident. An incident that made me feel disappointed. A little sad.

My boyfriend's good friend and his gal friend break up. According to the good friend, I was the devil advocate... I abused the code*** and spilled some past facts. (Code*** states that what is in the past stays in the past. We should let bygones be bygones.) My boyfriend called me and told me what I did was out of line.~ And he told me he still wanted to face him, to talk to him... ~ (Those in ~ ~ just went like a BUZZZZZ ... to me.)


Out of line... Ya, lots of things I did was out of line. I was kpo. I tried to mangle with God's work. But God knows all I want was for everyone to be happy. Happiness is a temporary state of mind. But being with that someone, happiness will be a constant or frequent temporay state of mind. That person will drive your dark clouds away no matter how dark they are. Cos he is your sunshine. The worst joke he tells will tickle you. He might just be your source of happiness. I didn't want to break any codes. I didn't want to be the bad person. But was what was going on correct? Now I don't know... Perhaps it was. I was just one big bloodly kpo.

But perhaps it was good. For it opened my eyes... To my boyfriend's many hieracy in his mind. To who I am in his eyes. One big bloodly kpo. Ha2.

Where is my devil advocate? Give me the courage to do the right/wrong thing... Stop my tears from flowing. Stop my heart from aching. For this man who sees me as a big bloody kpo...