Will you tell me I am worth 8 cows

I believe I am a one cow gal. But deep down I wish for that man who tells me not you are not, you are really worth 8 cows... And as I aged and the hope of meeting that man diminishes with time, I hope for others to tell me you are worth 8 cows. Hence I am a very hardworking crew. A rather thrifty person. I am humble. Polite. Try to be understanding, sometimes attempt to be cool too. But very frankly I do many many things I hope to be a good and nice person in everyone's eyes. Some things I do with alot of resentment cos I need to be nice... But I do that. And yes I constantly get disappointed cos the effort is really not worth the results... Sigh...

And I constantly asked myself how can I be happy... How? Guess I got the answer when I touch down from NY. I helped her gal carried her cargo bag onto the cab but instead of praising she just went ' Uncle you no gentleman, you let her carry!' She didn't help me (thank me though) but she get help from a man just by one sentence...

At that split second it dawn to me that I was wrong. Happiness will not come if I keep hoping that I am worthy... It only comes when I know I am.

How many cows are you worth?

I jus come across this excellent story. Got me thinking...

This is how the story goes. There is this village whereby when a man marries a woman, the man will have to give cows to the bride's father as dowry. But the question will always be how many cows? Let's jus say if your daughter is pretty and capable, then perhaps 3 cows. However if otherwise maybe 2 or just 1. And it's a norm for the groom and the future father-in-law to 'bargain' for the former wants a better deal but the latter to get the money back. Boy am I glad that I live in Singapore! And it so happens that in this story there is this 20 years old, plain looking, clumsy, a little silly gal (20 years old is considered as a old maid there. Praise the Lord again that I am here!). Or so cos that was what her father always tell her. And the day came whereby her husband had to ask for her hand and unfortunately he happened to be a very shewrd businessman. Hence before his arrival, her father constantly tell her I think I might jus get a tail for you...

But to everyone's surprise he offered 8 cows. Then they were married and went on for a month's honeymoon. And wa la after a month, the gal returned to be a changed person. Totally beautiful and gorgeous, everything that was contrastary to what her father said. Her change was so great that when her father visited, he told her husband -- You have cheated me! She is worth 10 cows.

But why the change? I guess cos she was promoted from a tail to 8 cows...

So how many cows are you worth?