Will you tell me I am worth 8 cows

I believe I am a one cow gal. But deep down I wish for that man who tells me not you are not, you are really worth 8 cows... And as I aged and the hope of meeting that man diminishes with time, I hope for others to tell me you are worth 8 cows. Hence I am a very hardworking crew. A rather thrifty person. I am humble. Polite. Try to be understanding, sometimes attempt to be cool too. But very frankly I do many many things I hope to be a good and nice person in everyone's eyes. Some things I do with alot of resentment cos I need to be nice... But I do that. And yes I constantly get disappointed cos the effort is really not worth the results... Sigh...

And I constantly asked myself how can I be happy... How? Guess I got the answer when I touch down from NY. I helped her gal carried her cargo bag onto the cab but instead of praising she just went ' Uncle you no gentleman, you let her carry!' She didn't help me (thank me though) but she get help from a man just by one sentence...

At that split second it dawn to me that I was wrong. Happiness will not come if I keep hoping that I am worthy... It only comes when I know I am.