$700++ Dinner

I had the most expensive dinner of my whole entire life on Sun. The place is nice, food is good. I didn't fancy the service. Not that it's not good I just didn't fancy it. And i didn't enjoy the dinner...

The dinner made me loathe growing up... And I tot I lost my favourite Uncle over that dinner.

I am 30 this year. Don't feel it. Perhaps cos I never 'grow up'. In one way or another. But I did in some ways too...

In the adult world, everyone does a certain dance in a certain environment. You can choose to join in or take a bow. Both ways, you need to abide to the rules and regulations. Both ways, you might 'win' or 'lose'.

And we all dance over that dinner except for YiLong and the 2 gals. We all turn and swirl. Bow and take our curfews. I speak and laugh. Sing praises and take meaningful nods. But really I was playing along so that my Mum will be happy. But I was pleased that Gage spoke like an adult that day and also as himself. I am proud of him. Yilong spoke little but he is himself . Always. And he is my pride too. Was a little disappointed with my boyfriend's 'timely hongbao session'. Was really pleased with Ah Su. Sometimes I wonder if he loves my Mum more than me. Sometimes I think so. He loves her enough to lavish on her. With only pleasure... He loves her enough to entertain her loved ones. He loves her enough to know when to say a soft word. He loves her enough to know when to allow her to win an argument. Might be small things but can I do it?

I had a $700++ dinner but it was merely a meal...