Why Unplugged?

Nowadays I always write my blogs with Damien's songs. Now I am listening to Lonelily and I asked myself why unplugged?

Have you ever been lonely? Have you ever been so alone that the only sound you hear is your heartbeat? And those heartbeats are deafening... Mine was.

So I guess Lonelily is best played unplugged ...

Lonelily ... you only hear your heartbeats... you know your complaints, your fears, your worries are heard only by you cos no one else cares, bothers ... Hence you play your worries, fears,complaints over and over again. Secretly praying that someone might hear it too. And also your heartbeats. Hoping that if the former fails at least your heartbeats might stop due to overplaying... Those are things you do Lonelily...

A Father of 2 and a Husband of 1

I met ChongYan today. We chat from 2pm all the way til 10.30pm. And I think we can go on but his wife and 2 children are waiting so another day I guess.

We started with he still 'factfinding' me. I mean we first walk into TCC. Why would 1 beng and 1 lian go to TCC? But we both warm up quite fat and fled TCC and went for Kopi and teh si. That's more like it,right?

He is still the same (to me) but I felt that touch of a tender husband and gentle father here and there.

Ya I confirm ChongYan is a father of 2 and a husband of 1. :)

LONELILY

Lonelily

I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But a lonelily landed my walls (??) in her hands
In a way I felt you were leaving me
I was sure I wouldn't find you at home
And you let me down
Could have knocked off the evening
But you lonelily let him push under your bone
You let me down
It's no use deceiving
Neither of us wanna be alone
You're coming home (x 4)
I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But I was lonelily looking for someone to hold
In a way I lost all I believed in
And I never found myself so low
And you let me down
You could've called if you'd needed
But you lonelily got yourself locked instead
And you let me down
It's one thing being cheated
But you took him all the way through your bed
And now you're coming home
And I'm trying to forgive
You're coming home
And I'm trying to forget
You're coming
And I'm trying to move on
You're coming home
And you haven't called yet
You're coming home
And I'm trying to forgive
You're coming home
I'm just trying to forget
You're coming
I'm trying to move on
You're coming home
But you haven't called
You're coming home
You're coming home (x4)
I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But I lonelily loomed her into my bone
You let me down
There's no use deceiving
Neither of us wanna be alone

I like this song cos it's very 'real' and it illustrates many people's sensation nowadays.

People nowadays are lonely. Why? I don't really know.

We are lonely when we are single. But we are lonely too when we are attached. We are not always lonely but constantly.

And when loneliness strike, he hit you hard. Leaving you senseless, driving you to overcome it with all possible means. Hence I guess we have the song Lonelily...

Do you still love him? Maybe. Can you forgive him? Maybe. You have a thousand questions and a thousand unknown but one thing is sure -- neither of you want to be lonely...

Amie

amie

nothing unusual nothing strange
close to nothing at all
the same old scenario the same old rain
and there's no explosions here
then something unusual something strange
comes from nothing at all
i saw a spaceship fly by your window
did you see it disappear?
amie come sit on my wall & read me a story of old
tell it like you still believe that the end of the century
brings a change for you and me
nothing unusual nothing's changed
just a little older that's all
you know when you've found it there's something i've learned
'cause you feel it when they take it away
hey hey
then something unusual something strange
comes from nothing at all
but i'm not a miracle and you're not a saint
just another soldier on a road to nowhere
amie come sit on my wall & read me a story of old
tell it like you still believe that the end of the century
brings a change for you and me
amie come sit on my wall & read me the story of o
tell it like you still believe that the end of the century
brings a change for you and me

My bro was the one who introduce me to this album O. I think this is his favourite and I ask why. Until last night... I realise this is 'his style of sadness'. I think he believes when you have to live in a world of false hopes, that will be sadness..

And this is a song that spells out the need for false hope. He believes that he is no miracle and she is no saint but he calls out to her constantly to repeat that story, to allow him to believe , even if it's in that one second, that there will be a change for him and her. Notice the details of the lyrics -- it didn't say hope nor happiness or anything positive, just change. He didn't even dare to hope for anything good, just a chance...

Ya, this indeed is a good song.

older chestsolder chests reveal themselveslike a crack in a wall
starting small and grow in time
we all seem to need the helpof someone else to mend that shelfof too many books
read me your favourite line
papa went to other lands
and found someone who understands
the ticking and the western man's need to cry
he came back the other day you knowsome things in life may change
and some things they stay the same
like time
there's always time
on my mind
so pass me by
i'll be fine
just give me time
older gents sit on the fencewith their cap in hand
lookin’ grand
they watch their city change
children scream or so it seems
louder than before
out of doors and into stores with bigger names
mama tried to wash their faces
but these kids they lost their graces
when daddy lost at the races too many times
she broke down the other day you know
some things in life may change
but some things they stay the same
like time
there's always time
on my mind
so pass me by
i'll be fine
just give me time

Volcanoes

Volcanoes

don't hold yourself like that
you'll hurt your knees
i kissed your mouth & back
that's all i need
don't build your world around
volcanoes melt you down
what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountainsand i’ll ask for the sea
don't throw yourself like that in front of me
i kissed your mouth your back
is that all you need?
don't drag my love around
volcanoes melt me down
what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountainsand i’ll ask for the sea
what i give to you is just what i’m going through
this is nothing new
no no just another phase of finding
what i really need is what makes me bleed
and like a new disease
she’s still too you to treat
volcanoes melt me down
she’s still too young
i kissed your mouth
you do not need me

This song reminds me of a friend...

This song teaches us -- Don't love with too much passion... Love shouldn't be like matches -- that create an instanteous spark and that is about all. Love should really be like gambling -- never show-hand ( you might lose it all and worst you can not increase your stake. If he is the one you will want to love him more and more right? But you can't for you show- hand! Remember?!), always know when to leave the table and increase your stakes when your cards are in your favour ( if he proves worth it, be nicer to him. Love is really just bater trade. Ya, it's time to wake up!)

Delicate

Delicate

we might kiss when we are alone
when nobody’s watchin’
we might take it home
we might make out when nobody's there
it's not that we're scared
it's just that it's delicate
so why d’ya fill my sorrow with the words you've borrowed from the only place you've known
why d’ya sing hallelujah if it means nothin’ to ya
why d’ya sing with me at all?
we might live like never before when there's nothin’ to give how can we ask for more?
we might make love in some sacred place
that look on your face is delicate
so
why d’ya fill my sorrow with the words you've borrowed from the only place you've known
why d’ya sing hallelujah if it means nothin’ to ya
why d’ya sing with me at all?

First I applause the name of the song -- Delicate. I feel for this song but only after reading the lyrics. I think this song is about LOVE. Therefore there are kisses, making out, make love, all these 'byproducts' of love. However it's not merely a Love song. It's perhaps a cry for help from one lover to another. Telling the person, asking the person.

You know when you love a person, you give him the POWER to HURT YoU! And even after that abuse, you will still find him delicate. So delicate that you will have to hold him upon your palms (with lots of fear. For he might slip and you will lose him forever. Or worse you will hurt the person you love most... And hence you continue to merely held him upon your palms - for he is delicate...)

So please listen to your lover... And his/her pleas for help...

Courtship

I am a very homely person. I am really a very tpyical cancerian. Homely, motherly,moody. That is me.

And cos I am homely, I seldom 'travel' in Singapore. It will just be home for me or maybe just dinners with my boyfriend and that's it. When I used to live in Bishan, I used to only go to Bishan, AMK and occasionally Toa Payoh. And now I merely go to the NTUC nearby and toa Payoh, occasionally Orchard/Bugis cos I need to go to gym.

So I know very little of Singapore. I was asked by a Pax on my last flight where to eat in Singapore. I skillfully mention a few places but after that tired flight and that meal on Sat, I sat myself up and ask myself which of these places have I been? (not passing by but really there to have a meal)

I have been to Boat Quay's Hot stones for dinner, been to Taka's Sushi Tei, Unity Square's Sushi , Wheelock's place's Sushi and big O, Pan Pacific's Hai Tien Loi and Peach Garden, a few Fish and Co outlet, Hard Rock,Great World City's 3d movies...

And as I recall these places, I recall all the persons I was with then, the feelings, the conversations... And I realise I was never really in a formal courtship except maybe with Shih Ming...

And that is sad cos Courtship is perhaps the sweetest part of a relationship...

$700++ Dinner

I had the most expensive dinner of my whole entire life on Sun. The place is nice, food is good. I didn't fancy the service. Not that it's not good I just didn't fancy it. And i didn't enjoy the dinner...

The dinner made me loathe growing up... And I tot I lost my favourite Uncle over that dinner.

I am 30 this year. Don't feel it. Perhaps cos I never 'grow up'. In one way or another. But I did in some ways too...

In the adult world, everyone does a certain dance in a certain environment. You can choose to join in or take a bow. Both ways, you need to abide to the rules and regulations. Both ways, you might 'win' or 'lose'.

And we all dance over that dinner except for YiLong and the 2 gals. We all turn and swirl. Bow and take our curfews. I speak and laugh. Sing praises and take meaningful nods. But really I was playing along so that my Mum will be happy. But I was pleased that Gage spoke like an adult that day and also as himself. I am proud of him. Yilong spoke little but he is himself . Always. And he is my pride too. Was a little disappointed with my boyfriend's 'timely hongbao session'. Was really pleased with Ah Su. Sometimes I wonder if he loves my Mum more than me. Sometimes I think so. He loves her enough to lavish on her. With only pleasure... He loves her enough to entertain her loved ones. He loves her enough to know when to say a soft word. He loves her enough to know when to allow her to win an argument. Might be small things but can I do it?

I had a $700++ dinner but it was merely a meal...

Songs

After listening to 'Blower's daughter' I wanted to write something about this singer. Cos this song touch me and I have not been touch for a while.

And after the album O I wanted to. Even more. I copy down the lyrics of each song and ask myself why did he write this song? What did he experience? How did he feel? Was he sad? Happy? Did he want to share his pain? Or did he just have a story to share?

I know of very few songs/singers. I seldom explore the vast and rich forms of music out there. Cos I think for those good singers and songs that I know I already got too little time. I am happy enjoying those small portion of good songs/singers.