26Feb --Cloudy

Yup tonight's a cloudy night.

I used to always look out for stars at night and will sigh slightly when it's a cloudy night. I stop doing. And I can't even recall when did I last do it. I just lost it. Just like that. Like the many things in life... You won't even know it. And when you do, it doesn't really matter. It's a shame but perhaps a luxury too. Staring at the sky every night. Looking out for the stars. Breathing in deeply as I marvel at God's creation.. Closing my eyes and wishing upon that first star that I see that night.

Tonight as I stare at the cloudy night, as I searched frantically for that first star I stumble upon the fact that I have lost it. I have lost the faith in that first star. I stop looking at the sky. Stop looking out for it. Stop wishing... And the lyrics of 'The Blown's Daughter' seeps in my ears -- and so it's...

Ya Life is full of so many 'so it's...' And now I comprehend the sadness in that song... Boy it stings.