The Daily Chores

I was watching an old Shaolin movie with Yi Long one night. Yi Long commented that Shaolin trains all their Gong fu experts by mere daily chores.

My back aches have been killing me these few weeks. And my best friend (Wendy) told me to look into my daily 'bad habits'.

Ya I guess it's all these daily stuff. Things that we never take to heart that acts upon us. That builds us and breaks us.

I am 30 this year. I looked upon my life and asked myself what have I achieved? Years came and passed. I have gain some and lose others. Life have been kind to me. God is forever merciful. But I asked myself how long more should I depend on the kindness of life and the grace of God.

Just did flight with my batch boy.And he told me better get promoted soon or else my job security is only for another 4 years. But I am merely doing my flights day in and day out. Taking life a day at a time, a flight at a time. But frankly I am fearful yet it's this fear that bounds me.

I know I have to take a leap but I am afraid I might fall short. Then what?

Presence

I wanted to write this when Yi Long was away in BBK. My Mum and I tossed and turned on our beds when he was away. The house felt empty and there is this hollowness and void in our hearts.

Ya 17 Dec to 25 Dec is a mere 1 week but day and day passed by very slowly.

When he was backed we told him about this feeling and Yi Long went like ya you missed a figure sitting in front of the pc all day long.

Yes we did. We miss him. His presence...

The house is Home again

I think this year will be a good year.

Gage came home on 1st Jan06! And our house is filled with music after so long. Nothing feels better than having everyone back home. For a moment the place is totally lightened up and there is so much warmth in it...

Since Gage started his hostel life I guess the whole family got used to him being away. But we never really got used to it. Really. The house will transformed when he is around. And on the night that he returned we (Gage, Yi Long and me) stayed in his room, talking, laughing and enjoying each other's presence.

I know school re-opens on 2Jan and he will have to join the paper chase, amazing race, sport club soon. But at least the house will be alive with the sound of music occasionally.

And on this day, I thank God for not putting me as the child of the richest family or some famous family ( though I always asked Him Why. Why? Oh Why!!!) or a perfect family that has no downs cos I know our love wasn't on first sight and our taste for each other wasn't acquired and achieved without any fights or struggles.