Living My Dream

I want my children to believe in themselves. Hence I have to do the same. Therefore Year 2006 will be a busy. God give me strength to work hard and preserve in all I do. I will have to get (1) Car License (2) Childcare Education Cert (3) Fisaf trainer cert - I am deciding whether to go for the full course or just the course for children. Will have to do my homework to find out. (4) My bible study (5) Change my eating habits (6) Correct my sleeping patterns (7) Work out 1/2 an hourat least 3 times a week (8) Strengthen my relationships with my family and friends (9) Do more housework then if possible do more community work (10) Pray twice daily

My Dream

I dream of setting up this 'Child development Centre'. I wrote down the blueprint for it.

One that recognises a child as an adult -- raising him/her seeing the future being.

And hence the basic :
(1) Religion - Allowing them to know that they are never alone. Always worthy of love.
(2) Health - Let them understand that they have to take care of their bodies. Health is the admission card to everything. Without it, nothing is attainable. Many sick people complain and lament and ask why do things happen to them. This is what I believe a cancer cell was planted in your body by yourself 10 years ago. And you continue to nurse and grow it. Therefore 10 years later you will have to harvest it. But I do agree that sometimes Shit do happens. However we must always on our part ensure that we tried.
(3) Vision - Giving them a sense of vision. Let them understand that they can be all that they want to be. They are capable of all things if they work for it.
(4) Community - We can live our lives alone but we will never be happy. Be a leaf on a tree. And you will feel yourself. Relationships make all the differences. Hence treasure every family members and friends. Always try to hold on.
(5) Hope - Without which live will be impossible.

How do you know?

How do you know what is happiness? How do you know if you are living the correct way? How do you know your own existence? How do you know if your boyfriend is the one? How do you know if he is happy with you?

How do you know?

I never asked...

Something happened and got me pondering...

Once I saw this -- Kill it 10 months later it's called murder but now it's only called abortion...

How much or rather how worthy is a life? A life of an unborn, nameless child?

I am not for abortion but I know it's not a stand for all and in some cases maybe it's better that way...

What I did on the 4th, 5th and 6th Dec got me wondering am I really ready for baptism? I supported abortion in a certain way... I believe abortion is wrong yet I believe allowing a child to be born into this world just cos of righteousness reasons is not correct too.

When I was younger I always like to tell myself I have never asked to be born so why these shit? I didn't asked to suffer... Yet as I grow older I realised I have never asked to be born but I have never regret it and I have always allow it. I thank God for my parents' mistake... This I believe will be the thoughts of the unborn child...

A model for Love

I grew up not knowing how to love ...

I have a family. I have a father, a mother and 2 younger brothers. But I grew up not knowing how to love.

My father adores me. Not the best one and he don't try but still he adores me. My Mum loves me. She endures a great deal of hardship for me... Perhaps it's a sin to say that but she is my God. She is the provider of all things to me... Without her, I am nothing... And I ought to praise her daily ( and I praise God daily for her). I have 2 wonderful brothers. Both quite different but lovable in their own ways. But still I grew up not knowing how to love.

I do not know if it's ok for a couple to hold hands in front of the children. I do not know if whispering sweet nothings with each other in presence of others is ok. Is kissing permitted? Should you share at least one hobby? Must you like the same food? Will having the same idol helps? Would you miss the person? Should you be independent? Dependent? What are the no-nos? What are the yes-yes? I do not know cos I grew up not knowing how to love.

My beloved Mum is divorced after 28 years of misery. Of living with a man who has opposing belief and thoughts and most importantly does not love her. And she has found or rather a good man has found her. And all a sudden I have a model for love. They are like old ( they are la) but boy does her boyfriend misses her, loves her,adores her...

I recently read an article regarding Justin Timberlake and Cameron Diaz's relationship. Despite their big age difference,Justin T says ' He enjoys the relationship, loves it, adores it, embraces it, praises it... Does your boyfriend do that? If not think twice...

And in another about Jet Li. Very often we asked 'How do you know he is the one?'. Mr Li has the answer! You realise, ' I put myself out there. I can give up my fame and success, give up my status, give up my money. I am even willing to die for her.' You realise this is love... So do you have love?