To Anyone Who Knows Sim Chong Lim

To anyone who knows Sim Chong Lim. My Dad. My one and only Dad. That guy who contributed that single sperm accidently. (Only last year then I realised I was sort of born out of wedlock. Am I angry? Believe me, I was not. For once I thank God for 'accidents'. For in one of it I was created.) The person without whom I will be an illerate. The person without whom I might have died of hunger at 1 and maybe lack of medical care at 2. To keep it short and sweet, the person without whom I will be nothing.

My Dad didn't really participant in our lives. He has a simple role that is he is the provider. Can't say he did a good job. But he did provide. I disliked him most of my life cos he didn't love my Mum. Initially I tot it was just that. I was the noble daugther who was standing up for my Mum. Then after some turns of events, I realise it was more than that. Many times, perhaps a thousand or more, I wished he spent less time washing his hands or reading or perhaps memorising the newspapers (seriously sometimes I can't tell) and use that time to tell me'Don't sulk', 'Don't slouch', 'Never believe you don't have a choice' etc. Or just to spend more time with us. Just more time for me to love him...

I never really love him. It was only in recent years, most of the time, after some long trip, that I see him aging... Whenever I see that, my heart stirs. Only when he was totally out of reach then I realised that wasn't stiring. That was a pain...

So despite of some complaints that I filed above, will you guys out there who knows a guy called Sim Chong Lim,(60 this year, abandoned by his heartless wife and ungrateful children) tell him. His ungrateful daugther, Sim Chia Yen, does really love Him...

Pls do this for me guys, for the next time when I see him, I can only turn away...