If You Could See Her

I think this is a lovely piece -- romantic and sweet. And I think it's true.

In the play, you will see the 'host' (I guess being the host of the Caberat, he must have seen it all. Hence his parnter must be beautiful.) with his parnter who is an orang utan... And he merely sings -- if you could see her th' my eyes...

I always tell my friends -- we never marry the 'best man' but the bridegroom whom I am sure will be the most suitable one for us, whom if seen th' your eyes no one will question.

If you have watched Brigdet Jones 's diary, you will always remember those words -- I love you, just the way you are...

But there are times whereby I wonder izzit really like this. And I have people telling me, you will never marry the one you love most. Then why marry? Is this another price you pay for loneliness?

I have just turned 30. Another year older so hopefully another year wiser. But at this junction, I ask will I get married? Will I marry for love, for loneliness, for 'advancement'? Should I wake my idea up and understand that love does exist but don't co-exist with marriage? Will the man who marry me, tell others 'If you could see her th' my eyes...' or will he asks me 'If you love me, please be the person I will love'? Will he loves me as who I am or will he wants me to be that person whom he will love?

Many years ago when love used to be magic and perhaps even sarced, I told myself if I don't get married at the age of 30, let me remain single. Now I asked myself will that stand? Frankly I don't know... But I know I will never be a mother...

The one thing you learnt about growing up is the truth hurts... Yes, I will not be a mother. Though I dreamt of my little ones every now and then...